Totally Tuesday

My dearest TAG, my love,

Today was definitely a weird day. Not much really happened, which didn't necessarily make it weird, but I felt like I was moving in slow motion all day long. My reactions weren't right. I don't know what it was, maybe I just need to sleep more. It's hard to do though, when your heart is somewhere far away, in the custody of another, and you hope with an unending hope that the person in charge of it realizes what precious cargo they are carrying, and takes good care of it.

German class today. I was supposed to teach you German, wasn't I? Another wasted opportunity, but still I feel deep down inside that I will have another opportunity. I know that we love each other, and that is enough. Our love will overcome any boundaries that the world or those who may oppose us may throw in our way. I know this. With all my heart I believe and hope and know that we will be together again.

I have gotten into the habit of kissing the picture of you I have put on my phone. It's a beautiful picture. You are so amazing and wonderful. I hope you know that this is not just pretty words, but the feelings of my heart. There is so much I want to say to you, I wish we could just meet somewhere quiet for an hour or two, talk this all out. I want to apologize, look into your eyes, and let you know how much I care, how much I love you. I want us to be a family. I don't just want us to be good buddies or lovers or boyfriend/girlfriend. I want us to be a family, because we will be the strongest family in the world.

Our love is so special. I wish I would have realized it earlier. I wish that I would have understood how special you really are. I wish that you would have called and talked to me one more time before taking the drastic measures that you did. I wish that I would have called and talked to you before you took those measures too. I so wish so many things, but I know that together we are awesome, and we will be awesome again soon. I love you so very much, my TAG, precious queen of my existence.

There is a word that Germans use for their sweethearts. The word is Schatz. It means treasure. But when it is used in that context it means a treasure that is worth more than anything else. The priceless treasure that one would never give away or give up. That's what you are to me. You are my Schatz, the treasure I would give all for, the one I will never give up. You are my world, my life, my love. I am so grateful that I got to meet you, that I got to love you, and I pray and beg and plead that I might be able to do that again. You mean so much to me. You are my world and my life. I love you more than anything else. You mean just as much to me as my kids. I want you to come help me build a family, and I want you and your kids and me and my kids to be that wonderful family.

I know that we can make some beautiful memories, my love. I know that there are still memories that we can make together, that there is a lifetime full of amazing things that together we can make happen. We have a love that will never die, and that love will carry us through. If you need, I am there at any instant. All you gotta do is say the word, and I am there. I will drive like a bat out of hell to get to you. I will come rescue you, I will be your hero.

I love you so very much, always and forever. There is no other woman for me, only you, my Schatz.

I love you, my TAG, with all of my heart, might, mind, and strength.

B