A hurting heart

My dearest TAG, my love,

My heart hurts something fierce tonight. I don't really know why. All I know is that I can't bear the thought of being apart from you. I need you, I want you, and I love you. I don't know why it took what it did for me to realize that I love you, and don't know why it took what it did for me to realize that you love me. All I know is that I'm glad that it finally happened, even as I am sad that circumstances are what they are now.

I know you are going to the fireman's ball this weekend. I am so jealous. I wish I could be the man that gets to have you on his arm, that gets to dance the night away with you. I'm so sorry for all that I have done. Please forgive me.

I will do whatever it takes to show you that I can be the man you deserve, that I can love you the way you deserve to be loved, and that can be there for you through thick and thin. I want you to know I am always here for you, and there is nothing that will keep me away from you. I will change the rules of time and space if I have to, so that I can run as fast as I can to get to you.

I am so so sorry for all that I have done. Words cannot even come close to expressing the remorse that is in my heart, the pain that I feel when I think that I have treated the one I love more than life itself as poorly as I have treated you. I only hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me.

I'm working on a song right now. It's called "One More One Last Chance". I hope one day you get to hear it.

I love you, always and forever,
B