Fairly decent Friday

My dearest TAG, my love,

Today was Friday, and it turned out pretty good. Luckily I have some really good friends who give me good advice and do their best to turn my rotten attitude around. I'm grateful for these friends. I hope to be able to introduce you to them sometime. I think you will like them and they will like you. I hope so anyway, because they are important to me, as you are important to me.

Today I had great intentions of moving and shaking and getting things done. Unfortunately, that didn't happen. I did go running, ran about 2 and a half miles, so that was good. But I had zero motivation for anything else. I guess we got some grocery shopping done, which was necessary, but still kind of hurt, because I remembered all the times we went together, and I wish that we could go again. I spent a lot of time with my kids, whom I love so very much. Even they ask about you quite often, and I know it would thrill them to no end if you would come visit.

We're going to Chuck E Cheeses tomorrow, my kids need to have some fun, and I would absolutely love it if you could come. Remember how you came that one time? I love that memory, because it was one of the first times my kids ever met you, and that was such a great memory. I have so many of them with you in them, and I hope that I can have some more. Hopefully sooner rather than later.

I'm so sorry, my TAG, that I can't hold you every night like I wish I could. I'm sorry that I can't be there to kiss you and hold your hand. The prospect of not having you around for activities and fun is almost more than I can bear. I'm prepared to live the rest of my life alone, but it would be much better if I could spend my life with you, together. We would be amazing. We would have a historic love, the kind the poets describe in epic poems and authors die to write about. I feel so deeply, yet I fear that the longer that time passes, the more you are slipping away from me.

I'm sorry if I do things that seem crazy. I am driven by love, and sometimes it drives me crazy. I will back off, give you the time and the space that you need. I'm hoping that the old saying is true about loving something, letting it go, and it comes back to you. That is the hope I am holding onto now.

I love you so much, and miss you a lot. I always will. This will never go away for as long as I live. I will always be yours, you need only come claim me. I am so thankful that I have you in my life, you have enriched my life beyond my understanding, and I hope that we can be a family soon.

I love you forever, my one and only love.

Love always,
B