Fat Tuesday

My dearest TAG, my love,

Hello there once again. It is Fat Tuesday. Did I go out? HA! Nope. I don't go out, because I don't have you to go out with. You were always so much fun to go out with. I enjoyed watching you interact with other people. Even when you got fierce it was fun. You could be like laughing and joking one minute, then get all up in someone's mug the next, just because they had said something you didn't appreciate.

I miss you more and more each day. I wonder if you feel the same? I thought that it was supposed to get easier as time went by. It isn't and it hasn't. I just miss you more and more. I wonder what you are doing at every hour and every minute of the day. I wonder if you're thinking of me, as I am thinking of you.

I went and looked at some trucks today, but there was no joy in it, knowing that I wouldn't be able to share the experience with you. Plus I don't have my money yet so it's not like I would be able to take one home with me! Anyways, there are some really nice trucks out there that people apparently think are made of gold. Expensive! But I know I'll find one that will suit my needs. Then I can use it to move you out and in with me! HAHAHA! I crack myself up.

Seriously though, I wonder sometimes if it wouldn't just be healthier for me to move on. I don't want to, but I wonder sometimes. The only problem is that you are now the yardstick against which all other women or my interactions with them will be measured, and they will always come up wanting. You are the most wonderful woman I have met or ever will meet in my life. It's you and no other. I so wish you would come back to me, I know our love is strong and will conquer all doubts.

I know now that I'd rather be alone for the rest of my life than live without you. I don't want to live without your love. I want to bask in your presence, be one with you, and show you every day that I love you. I hope you understand and realize how I feel. You are amazing and should always know that I love you.

I do love you, my TAG. Never forget that, and never doubt. I will always be here for you, for whatever it is you may need. Please, please, don't hesitate to call. You will find only love and acceptance on the other end.

I love you forever,
B