Holy Ouch!

My dearest TAG, my love,

I think I missed a day. It happens, I guess. Sometimes it hurts just as bad to write as it does to not write. I know, I'm lame. But this is who I am now. I acknowledge all my feelings, regardless of how lame they may sound or if they make me seem like less of a man.

So I went through my camera today for the first time in forever. Wow. Holy Ouch. There were pictures on there from Halloween and Christmas. You looked so beautiful on Christmas Eve as you were opening your presents. Why oh why did I ever let you go, or not let you know just how much you mean to me? Why was I so blind as to not see that you love me just like I love you. Why did I not acknowledge that?

I love you oh so much, my TAG. I didn't know true love existed until there was you. I didn't realize I deserved to be loved and appreciated until there was you. I didn't know what it meant to truly love somebody else until there was you. You saved my soul, you rescued me from pain and torment. I do so love you, and I hope you feel and see that. Please come home to me. I know we can make it work. I know that we can together make a difference. We are family. You have shown me what it means to be a family. I know we are great for each other.

I'm going to be here this whole week, and I'm afraid it might be torturous for me. I don't know what I'm going to do with myself. I love you so much, I wish I could see you all day every day. You are an amazing woman, and I will love you always, from the bottom of my heart and with all that I am, I love you. I know I don't have much money, but every little bit is yours to have. I know I don't have a nice house or nice cars or the ability to buy nice things for you or the means or the ways to take care of you the way you deserve to be taken care of. But I can promise that I will work as hard as I can to give you the world, and that I can give you something that money could never buy. True, unadulterated, pure love. I love you so very much. You're amazing.

I will love you forever, my love, my life, my all. you're the best thing that has ever been in my life, and you'll be the best thing I will ever have. Thank you for sharing the part of life with me that you did. I will treasure it always. And if you find it in your heart to come back, please do. The door will be open to you at every time. Any time. I am yours, yours forever.

I love you always and forever,
B