Wednesday of Wonder

My dearest TAG, my love,

What a wonderful, weird Wednesday this was! I woke up from my slumber to the dream mentioned earlier, that started the weirdness out. I thought about you all day long due to that dream, and I hope and pray that you are doing well. I worry so about you, my love. I worry because I care and love you so much. I want to see you happy and smiling. I know I can bring that bright smile to your face every single day! I want to be able to do that.

I ran 3.1 miles today, or a 5k equivalent. My running is improving, I know because I ran those 3.1 miles in just a little over 23 minutes. That's pretty fast for a big old boy like me! I do so enjoy running, thank you for motivating me to start again. I love you for motivating me to do so many good things. You are wonderful.

Then I went to school, I took a test on Monday for my stats class, remember? I was afraid I had flunked it, right? Well, I came close. I didn't really pass. I got a 61%. The lowest test score I remember getting ever. I felt horrible. I vowed to never get below a 95% on a test in that class the rest of this semester. Will you help me with that?

I remember one time telling you that if I didn't do well in school then I would have to reduce TAG time. I guess now we have proof positive that you were good for me in my scholastic endeavors. Deans list two semesters in a row. Now I fail a test, after you leave. I'm so sorry my TAG. If it meant getting you back I would flunk the rest of the semester too, but I know how damaging that will be to our future. So I will push forward, for the both of us, and for our family. I love the thought of our family so very much.

I actually got a nap in today too, which was good. I only got about 5 hours of sleep last night what with the crazy dream and running. So I guess my body decided I needed the rest. I just sat down in one of those big ole comfy chairs, and fell right asleep. It was nice. I thought about you then too, wondered what you were doing, if you were smiling. I hope so, you have the most fantastic smile. Beautiful, full of goodness, makes me happy!

I wish I could sit down and talk to you. Just us two. I wish I could hold you in my arms, speak my heart in your ear, kiss your lips, make love to you. You are the only woman I will ever love for the rest of my life, I hope you feel that. I hope that asthe sun rises each morning, and as it sets each evening that you are aware that I send my love as I watch. Oh wait, you are so not a morning person. Guess we'll have to stick with sunset and moonrise!

The other good thing that happened today is the insurance adjuster called me and informed me they would be paying me around 4300 dollars for the truck. That was a welcome relief, to know that I would be getting back about what I paid for it in the first place. I've got my eyes on a couple of trucks that I think would work great, extended cabs and what not, big enough that we can all climb in and go camping or to the drive-in this summer. How cool is that? Will you go truck shopping with me? I promise you'll get first drive privileges. And you'll be able to use it any time you like. Especially to move you out of where you're living now, into our new place. I know we don't have a new place yet, but we can find one pretty easy! We're a great team like that.

I'm sorry that I didn't realize earlier how much you mean to me, but I am no longer looking back. I am looking forward to a bright future with you, and I hope you are looking forward too, to a bright future as my family. I want us all to be such a happy family, and I know we can be. We are strong enough, our love is strong enough to make this happen. I also know that we will have lots of fun this summer, you and I, building our family and our lives. I will be done with school, I will get a great job, and together we will build an awesome life. I can see us now, sitting on our porch after kids are in bed, just holding hands, talking, watching the sun go down.

I so want a life with you, my lovely TAG. You mean the world to me, and I will fight through heaven and hell to have you by my side. There is nothing on this earth that will stop me from trying to get to you and make you mine again. I know what makes you happy, and I will do that. We will be a family. You will be my wife. I love you so.

I love you my TAG. Sleep well, wherever you may be. Know that I am watching over you as well as I can, that I am always here for you, all you need do is reach out, and I will be there. I love you and miss you more than I can adequately express.

Love, always and forever,
B