My dearest TAG, my love,
Words cannot express what you mean to me. Whenever I think of you, I get a big goofy grin on my face, and I can't help but be happy. I am so thankful that I got to share a part of my life with you, and I hope to be able to share the rest of my life with you.
Sunday was a glorious day. You probably know why by now. I was so happy to be able to have that memory. I am so grateful to be able to do things for people, things that make them happy and smile. It is wonderful to be a part of that.
The drive back down was uneventful. I made it in one piece at least! Thought you might be glad to hear that. I am always glad to experience it. I hope that you had a good day, a wonderful afternoon, a pleasant evening. I wish that we could spend every minute of every day together, that we could share all these awesome memories. I will keep them all in my heart, my love, and share them with you when I can. Know that you are in my heart always, so you are in all my memories. That is important to me.
Today I went to class, and it kicked my butt. Then I went truck shopping. I was successful! I was able to get a very good truck for a very good price, and it's big enough to fit our family. We'll have to be a little cozy, but for camping and other things it'll be perfect. I can't wait to share it with you, to let you drive it, to see your face as you drive that bad boy. It needs some work, but it's nothing I can't do myself. I'm fairly handy that way. I already fixed a lot of it, but there's still a few more things that need done for it to be as perfect as it can be.
I watched the finale of the TV show the "Bachelor" tonight. I was struck at how earnest the guy, Brad, was. He knew what he wanted and he went for it. I feel that same way. When he proposed to the woman he loves and told her that she was his forever, I identified with that. How I long to get down on one knee before you, my TAG, and ask you that all important question. I've already got one very important item for that moment. It's very nice, beautiful even, and I hope to one day be able to share it with you. I feel very strongly that this will happen for us. I want us to be a family, you, me, our kids, and to share our love with the world. I am a changed man, this is no facade, this is me, who I am now. I realize how much you mean to me, how very important our love is, and I never want to lose that feeling or lose you. If you decide to come back to me, I will waste no time in asking for your hand in marriage, because I don't want to waste any more time. I've wasted so much being foolish and indecisive and just plain stubborn. That time is passed. I am ready to make you my whole world.
I love you forever, my TAG. There is no other woman nor will there ever be another woman for me. I have your picture as the wallpaper on my phone, that picture of you from your birthday. What a magical day that was. I was finally honest with you and with myself when I told you I love you. I don't know what caused me to retract that statement, besides the fact that I was sabotaging myself. Know only that what I said that night is still the truth. I do love you. I'll never forget the way you looked at me when I told you that, the light in your eyes, the smile on your face. That will be a magical moment for me for the rest of my life.
Here's to us having many more magical nights. I know we can do it. Together our love is strong, strong enough to overcome anything. This will make us that much more strong. I know we can overcome. Together we are invincible! I love you. I miss you so very much, I wish I could leap across the distance and the space between us, gather you in my arms, explain just what you mean to me, and make everything alright all over again.
There's a song I like by the group Boyz II Men. It's called "On Bended Knee". It talks about a guy who screwed up, he's on his knees begging for forgiveness. The only part of the song I don't like, is he says "Can't somebody tell me how to get things back, the way they used to be..." I don't want things to go back to the way they used to be, I want them to be so much better for both of us. I know that I can do it, that we can do it. I have so much love for you, my TAG. It's overwhelming sometimes.
Please, let me have the chance to get down on one knee and ask for your hand in marriage. You will never regret it, and I know that our love will grow stronger every day. I will never, ever be so far away that you can't reach me. A phone call, an email, an SOS signal, smoke signal, whatever it takes, you call for me, and I'll be there. I will never hurt you like this again, my TAG. I promise that with all that I am, with all my heart, might, mind, and strength. You are my forever, and I want to be yours.
I love you forever and always, and I will always be here for you.
I love you, forever and always,
B
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