My dearest TAG, my love,
Thursday here again, and it has become somewhat of a paradox in my life. I enjoy Thursday because I get to go to my house, be with my things, and it means that I am close to you. Very close to you. I don't enjoy it because I have to drive 300 miles to get to my house, and even though I may be close to you, I'm further away than ever before. It's really a difficult thing to describe in words, as most of my feelings are anymore.
The drive back was uneventful. Thank goodness. I've had enough accidents this year. I sure hope I can get my insurance money sometime soon so that I can go truck shopping for reals. I need a new vehicle. I think this weekend I'm going to really buckle down and work on that Saturn too. Hopefully I can figure out what's wrong with it. If not, then I guess I'll push it off a cliff!
I sure wish that you could come over, just so we could sit and chat for a while, or cuddle. I miss cuddling with you. I kick my own butt every day that I didn't realize how special and important to me you are until you were so far gone. I refuse to believe that it is too late. Part of me wants to give up, to throw in the towel and say "I'm done!" But the larger part of me knows this is fallacy, that I will never in life find another woman as wonderful as you. You are the only one I will ever love, and the only one I will ever want to love. No other woman will every stack up to you.
I love you so much, my TAG. I hope one day you will see in your heart that I am still there, that our love is still strong, and on that day you will walk back into my life, heal my aching heart, and I will heal yours, and together we can grow in love and devotion. We will be the couple other couples are envious of, because our love will be so strong.
I love you with all my heart, with everything that is in me. I am yours completely and utterly, without question and without reservation. My life is an open book to you.
I love you always,
B
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