Children

Dear TAG,

Tonight I picked up my children. Because I had informed their mother already about my intentions toward you, she took it upon herself to tell my kids. I then had to explain to my kids what was going on, how we were not together anymore, but if I were lucky and blessed enough to be with you again, that we were going to make you a permanent part of our family. Two of my kids were stoked about that. My oldest boy balked a little. He wasn't too sure that was a good idea.

About halfway through the ride to their grandparent's house, my oldest boy asked if that meant that TAG's kids were going to be his step-siblings. That if you and I got married, my TAG, that your children would then be his step-brother and step-sister. He was very excited when I said "Yes." He got even more excited when I told him that we would probably be moving into a house, and out of the crummy trailer I now occupy.

So, my kids are on board. The ex, well that's another story. I don't anticipate any problems from her, but I think that she might be very openly not too friendly towards both of us for a while. Towards me definitely. I informed all parties that this wasn't for sure yet, that you, my TAG, were not with me and maybe never would be again. But the kids are on board, and ready to handle whatever it may be that happens.

I've accepted that what will be, will be. I can't force you back into my arms. I can assure you that I will always love you, no matter how far away I am or if I never get to see you again. I will always be here for you. But I'm giving you your space and letting you take care of whatever it is you need to. If by chance in the future you feel like contacting me, please do. I will always have an ear to listen, a shoulder to cry on, and arms ready to hold you forever. I love you so much.

Please take good care of yourself. Know that I love you. I will continue to write to you everyday, and will think of you every minute, and will hope and pray with every thing that is in me that we may be together someday, somehow, some way. That we can become the loving family that I want so bad, and that I'm pretty sure you want as well.

Sleep well, my love. I will dream of us together, for in my dreams we are together, happy and joyful.

I love you always

B